Clara Clara's Little Place

Yesterday, there were two mid-age women standing right in front of me as I waited for the elevator.

They were whispering to each other; however, it was getting louder and louder.

I couldn't help but eardropping.

As I focused on what they were saying, I finally got an idea what their topic was.

They were talking about losing weight.

Both of them were short but looked quite tiny.

Considered their height and ages, I believed they were pretty fit.

One of them was talking about she must lose another 2 kilos 'coz since she hit her lowest point, she'd gained 2 kilos.

I was very surprised but couldn't help myself to start talking to them.

I said "You are very skinny. Actually very very skinny considered your height. May I know how old you are?"

The woman who was planning to lose another 2 kilos wanted me to guess.

I guessed " around late 30s."

She answered " I'm mid 40s."

I shaked my head with surprise and continued asking "Then exactly, how many kilos are you weighted right now?"

She answered "I'm 44 kilos after I gained weight."

So she was 42 kilos, she was saying.

I told her that considered her age, height, and current weight, she was extremely fitted.

There's no need for her to go extreme.

She said, "Before she started diet, she weighted over 60 kilos. 42 is the lowest point she'd ever hit. She must return to the point and maintain at that stage."

As our elevator arrived on the first floor, I told her "if you need to watch weight so carefully like young girls do, what do younger women gonna do when they turn 40s?"

As I stepped out the elevator, I suddenly understand that kind of psychological path as people ever being fat and then lost a lot of weight.

People overeat and then realize they can't overeat again because eating too much will simply ruin their shape.

So they work so hard to lose what they carry on their bodies.

Once they lose weight, they are so afraid to become a fat again and EVERYONE IS THE SAME!

I am basically like everyone of them, too.

"I must not gain weight!" That's what runs in my head over and over again every sigle day.

Because our society views "skinny is beautiful. fatty is ugly." that's why women think we have to be skinny if we wanna win others' admire or jealous or very likely to attract men's attention.

It is true that we, despite male or female, we consider slim is pretty. 

Unfortunately, weight watching is what women have to do and be extremely careful with for the rest of our lives.

As long as we live and stay in this society, we can't escape from being judged.

Very pathetic, yet very real indeed.